in october (2025), i started painting again after a 7 year hiatus — but something was off.
i couldn’t explain it at the time…things weren’t quite settled within me. it’s difficult to describe.
there was a lack of order and stability.
in my body — feeling myself slip out of rhythm with the physical transformation progress i had made.
in my mind — it was like a sort of restlessness. moving quickly, but not towards anything clear…
…like being in a state of mind you don’t fully understand, but you feel invincible.
have you experienced a moment like that?
that’s where i was when i suddenly started painting again.
though not visually connected,
these first two pieces, chaotic night and dark mirror, hold these feelings.
i didn’t set out to create a theme,
but looking at them now, months later, it feels like something revealed itself anyway.
something i began to notice a while ago,
and i’m only just starting to understand.
there’s much more to this…
…you can read the full series here
— elise